The discord is that you don’t feel the need to fight for things you want in life, you feel that thought and the thought is in discord with truth.
‘Live my life regularly’ might mean like everyone else does or conventionally, and if so that would be why the thought… ‘why I feel the need to fight for things I want in this life’ arises.
You’re not really finite, you’re infinite. Infinite means there is no finite. So if regularly means ‘like everyone else’, that wouldn’t be quite aligned. That would be a misperception of what ‘everyone else’ actually is.
Because there is no finite there is no separation. So there isn’t actually a finite self and a life, and so there isn’t a finite self in a life or which has a life. The aliveness is your own infinitude, just as peace, happiness, intelligence and unconditional love is your own nature. You’re just as aliveness wether dreaming & believing there’s life & death or aware that you are aware (self-aware) and dreaming, without believing in a duality of life & death and an actual finite self therein.
If it’s believed you’re finite and there is a life and there are things, indeed it will seem as if there is a need to fight for things (the survival paradigm), and this assumed need is assumed to be what’s felt, in spite of any discord, contraction, stress, tension and dis-ease seemingly experienced or unfolding. If you’re infinite, and you are, need can not possibly be. It’s not possible for an infinite being to need, because infinite mean no finite. (Infinite can not know finite).
If it’s not believed you’re finite then it’s not believed there’s a second ‘thing’, a life you’re in, and it’s not believed there are ‘things’ in a life.
Instead it’s noticed there are thoughts, that there are, things. It’s also noticed these ‘thoughts’ are not separate finite things, such as produced by a brain (separate finite thing), but rather simply appear, and disappear.
These ‘thoughts of things’ which appear and disappear aren’t coming from anywhere and aren’t actually separate. This means infinite you is essentially a magician, in accordance with direct experience, of your own appearing and disappearing, as ‘thoughts’.
And it’s not just “the thoughts”.
It’s perception and sensation as Well. It’s the Whole of experience. The Whole show. The entirety is essentially akin to the experience of one “thought”. Appears, disappears, done. Gone. Never was a thing in the first place because “it” “was” an appearance of you, not an actual separate finite ‘thing’.
There is no mechanism of creating, but there’s an apparent mechanism of overlooking, or obscuring, and “it’s” “thoughts”, believed.
Beliefs.
Having noted that there is no ‘finite you’, infinite you is appearing as if there is a finite you. This is ‘accomplished’ by infinite you appearing as everything else, making it seem as if you’re smack dab in the middle of it all. Hence, the entirety of direct experience seemingly implies there’s a soul or finite self ‘inside the body’. The truth is unimaginably Greater.
Body’s a thought. What the thought points to is you, appearing. Believing what the thought ‘body’ points to is not you appearing, but is you, is an illusion. An illusion of believing thoughts, you’re appearing as.
So “the fight”… is really between believing thoughts (illusion), and the truth of appearance, and therein, your own infinitude, and that you are essentially dreaming, right now, and because all is apparent, there is only actually ‘ever’, right now, and in sincerity, honesty & integrity, not even.
So look around. ‘That’ is yourself, without exception. Don’t fight with yourself. So called thoughts are yourself. Don’t fight with yourself. Feel. That is yourself. Dont fight with yourself - listen to yourself.
Short and sweet, you can listen to intelligence, happiness, peace, unconditional love…
…or a thought, and believe there is, and you are, a finite self, which knows, understands, and is right.
Alternatively there is the truth; ever-present, free, infinitely intelligent, unconditionally loving, ever-peaceful, limitlessly creative, Guidance.
There is no finite self which feels ‘I need to fight for things’.
There is emotion, and how that thought, feels.